Motherhood

One more baby

We’ve been asked time after time, do we want more kids, are we going to try for the girl?

I love children, especially mine. But you know you always hear of people saying “you know when you’re done having kids, you feel it in your heart”.

Well, Renaldo and I always said we wanted 4 kids. “The plan” was, to have 2 kids first (RJ and Elias), wait 4-5 years and have another 2. Well funny how nothing ever goes as planned, Joel joined our family 4 years early. So initially when we got pregnant with Joel, we said no matter if it’s a boy or a girl, we are done. I spoke with my OB about getting my tubes tied, and she refused to do it (I’m too young blah blah), so we said alright after the baby is born Renaldo will get a vasectomy. We decided to not know the gender of the baby, because we thought for sure this was it, no more kids after this one, and we’ve always wanted that delivery surprise. So after Joel was born (In my Bathtub) we found out little man, was a little man. Still at that moment, we thought we were done, even though he was a boy, not the little girl we secretly hoped for.
It wasn’t until we went back to the hospital (driving by I mean) a couple weeks later that I looked up at where my room was and remember the day after Joel was born, I stood at the window, looking out, waiting for my husband to come back to pick us up to head back home. While I stood at the window, I had so much peace and joy in my heart. The feeling is so indescribable, it brings tears to my eyes. It was just Joel and I, watching the cars pass, it was 5 pm so the sun was slowly going down, and our room was silent. This baby I carried for 38 weeks was at last, in my arms.

So several weeks later, when we drove past the hospital and I looked up at the room, I instantly felt the emotions of that moment. And every time I drive past the hospital (I work there so I drive past it all the time), I feel all the emotions. In my heart, I knew this wasn’t it. As much as I love my little rascals, there’s more, one more waiting.

I’m not saying we’re going to try for a girl, but we are trying for one more healthy child to complete our family (and make it an even number, I hate odd numbers).

If you’re wondering, are we trying for another baby now? NO WAY! My uterus is chillin right now. And will be chillin for awhile.

As crazy as it sounds, we want to wait until Joel is 4 years old. Our house would not be able to accommodate another child, so we’d have to sell our house- if you’re following our home updates, you know we are in the middle of renovations and all this hard work we put in, I’m not ready to give it up!

People tell me, just have them back to back, why wait? For us, for our family, it’s best to wait. When Joel is 4, he’ll be in VPK (voluntary preschool) and RJ and Elias will be in elementary school. They will be old enough to fend for their selves, not babies that need me for everything. And it’s hard having a baby, and another baby (18 months apart). So for us, 4 years is the plan. But that’s our plan, if God wants us to have another baby in 2 years or to not have another baby at all, we will trust in him.

 <<Many are the plans in a person’s heart, but it is the Lord’s purpose that prevails. Proverbs 19:21>>

But in my heart, I know I’m suppose to be a mama of 4. (Whether it’s 4 kids, or 3 kids and my husband which equals 4 hahah, just kidding) but I know we are not complete.

I’m blessed with what we have and we will be fruitful with what we have, love and guide our sons, to grow up to be responsible, independent gentlemen. Every night I pray for these things over them.

So I hope that answers your question, are we going to try for one more?- Yes, we do want another. And in no way are we “trying for a girl”.

 

 

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